all this not sleeping has caused me a constant headache for about 5 days now. i feel sick to the bones and i can't eat anything proper. i just want to vomit. i hate food, it's disgusting. but i don't want to ever be anorexic. never. i am too lazy to have an eating disorder anyway. [OMYG1!!!! im -soO00Oo- not fat!!11!!!] stupid headache and stupid stomach.

i hate horny, immature teenage boys. and i hate girls. because they are evil. eViL, i tell you. but i -love- photography. and music. and stuff that makes my soul swoon.

i should stop writing because i can feel stuff coming up to the surface of my consciousness that i don't want out in the open because it scares me to death. my eyes hurt. i've been very mad today.