we were going to my sister's. but. they dragged me grocery shopping, and it was horrible. i met martin & uffe, and i didn't know what to say. they hugged me, and i just stumbled on words, trying to hide my face with my hair. i haven't been outside since i was picked up at the hospital, and i have not seen anyone but my family and wojciech. and i haven't talked much.

i feel very uncomfortable going outside. it is like my body is on fire. it burns. and hurts. and i just want to hide.

i don't want to go to school again. i'm not hungry. and i'm not tired. i don't know what to do with myself. i need to stop listening to that song. i am going to lie in bed and hug my dog for hours.

[i did a 1000 piece puzzle today...]