i always speak too soon.

i cried myself to sleep, thinking about him. the way he smells, the part of his back that is so soft it just makes me swoon, the little funny sounds he makes, his curly cigarettes, the way he would hug me from behind and whisper in my ear that i am beautiful [liar], the way he relaxes so much he forgets to close his mouth, lying in his arms, his pants that are much too big...

i miss him. so much. i just want him back.

danielle - friend/ex/what is she? + simon - ex/friend/what is he? = couple. i really. don't know what to think. great, i guess. danielle has been hurt a lot and i think she needs someone. to take care of her. and simon is.. he is wonderful. i hope. they work out. and never hurt each other. because i. love them both.

and i don't want to ever talk to them again.