if it hurt before, it hurts even more now.

friends. right. sure.

i need new friends. really. new. brand new. those. real ones. the ones who can be trusted. the ones who come running. drop what they're doing.

i hate it. i hate all this. i hate that i have to be so pathetic. that i am locking my ONLINE diary. i hate everyone right now.

i hate my sadness. i hate myself. i hate hate hate hate hate. i'm so sick of myself. and i don't even have words.

i feel so hurt, so bruised, so angry, so disappointed. and i want to cry, but i can't cry anymore. i wish it would just. all go away. i hate existing.