i am so D R U N K ! ! ! and i cannot wait to get into that B A T H ! ! ! it will be so nice. warm water against this dirty skin. my poisoned mind will finally be able to rest. hopefully without any nightmares. ever again. i am hoping. hoping. hoping.

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sick i am of it. i am such a bore. people need to leave me alone with my alcohol. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DESTROY IT? it is not that hard. just to stay away from me. it's not like you miss me anyway.

i can't get rid of this heartache.