i am tired. and i should have gotten drunk on friday. but i helped my sister [who is 28] with her homework, and she seemed thankful. and i went to the apartment. and. we sat. and then we slept. and he tried to get up, but i didn't want him to. and i cleaned up the kitchen. and tania came. and he came home. and we watched the tube. and we started on dinner. and thomas came over. and we ate. and we left to see jj72. and we were drunk. and we met wojciech. and we got even more drunk. and we had to go home because there was too much vomit involved. and we went to bed. and i slept horribly.

sometimes words just don't feel right. and i am scared. and i cried a lot yesterday. i have had many bad dreams this weekend. but the days have been alright. and i saw stine again. and she is so wonderful. i think there was too much talking right now. very scared.

please don't destroy me.