i am considering going to bed. right now. it is not even 8pm. i feel like crying, cutting, jumpingoutfromarooftop, hangingmyselffromanoose, shootingmybrainsout. things like that. i feel pathetic. i am nothing. nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing. i mean nothing.

i have nothing to do. and i will probably kill myself if i don't find something to do. and i forgot my camera at my friend's house this weekend. and i just want to fucking curl up in a ball and die. i don't want to go to school. my insides are cringing, and i feel sick. i just want to vomit. i am stupid.

tania is beautiful. 100% hund. we are getting dreads together. someonehelpmeplease!