and so. it never leaves me. and i keep on cutting. and i never get peace, because it haunts me in my dreams every night. i will never get peace from it. and i feel his hands all over me, and it doesn't ever fucking s t o p ! i want it to stop. i need to yell.

and danielle and i are talking again, and i don't know what to think. it is nice, but i am scared that i will get hurt again. though i don't think i have the same feelings for her anymore. i don't know what i feel. if i feel at all. fuck it.

i am so uninteresting.