i haven't been to school yet, this week. i wonder how long i can stay home. so what if i am coughing up blood, that is not what matters. is there any point going to school if you cannot concentrate?

like. the teacher will say something, and it's not that i am not paying attention, it's just that i can't remember what the teacher said, after it's been said. i just don't fucking remember. it just makes me even more insecure, because i must be stupid if i cannot remember.