my relationship with my father has always been tense. he yells at me from time to time. and it's loud. and all i can seem to do, is cover my ears and cry while he does it. my mother says, it is because he just doesn't know how to show his love for me. he does not understand, how i can feel sad and not know why i feel sad. and i can't understand, why he can yell so loud at someone he apparently loves more than anything. where is the connection? it's not like he is going, "I FUCKING LOVE YOU, DAUGHTER!"

he goes, "WHY CAN'T YOU TELL ME YOU BASTARD, YOU DRIVE ME INSANE, NOW I HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL, WHY DO YOU MAKE YOUR MOTHER CRY?! YOU RUIN THE FAMILY!" he loves me. right.