i saw it coming, and i shouldn't have expected anything. but of course i did, and i let myself be happy. oh too soon. it's all too soon, and i'm too eager, too desperate and too clingy. i am an airhead. i am dumb. i'll never figure it out. why does everything fall apart in my presence?

and you. i'll bet you love my misery. you love seeing me without all the things that you have gained. you're so wonderful and i love you. you've always been jealous, it's a shame. because we could have been friends.