i am absolutely sure that there must be something dangerously wrong with me. everything around me is breaking. not just material things, but people. i seem to have a contagious destructive effect on others. and i don't like it much. i am not sure what i am supposed to do.

i try to stay away from as many people as possible, but it is hard. there is a need for people inside me, but at the same time the fear and the guilt. bad combination. meh. i have nothing to write about.