i have got the numbers. the rent. the contract. all that needs to be done, is the signing. all the paperwork. the address change, the lease, the money.

my mother and i fight worse than teen girls fight with each other over boys and betrayal. she. is so disappointed in me. and i feel sad. she forbid me to move out. but she can't. there is no way i am staying here.

i wonder what it will be like. i wonder if i can manage. will i be able to finish school? or will i slack as much as i do here? i hope not. somehow, i need to prove to them, and myself, that i can do this. i have to.