erik is here. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, i am so bitter. and i can't control myself and i get sad and stupid. and i hate girls and i hate that i am one, because feelings are superfluous and unnecessary. blah blah blah who cares who gives a fuck.

i am really mad. it feels like my blood is boiling and i just want to fucking scream and kick the living shit out of those fucking idiots. will i ever be a good person? I THINK NOT. too little self discipline.

blah blah blah. uhm. okay. cooling down. or something. i need to get drunk again. or something. anything. i need to get away from myself.