i'm crying. again. it's so me. oh no, something isn't good, let's cry. i don't have anything to say. it's no use having friends, or trying to care about anyone.

all this. all that has happened this weekend. it always happens to me. i am left alone. and suddenly i remember why i stopped socialising with other people. why i stopped drinking with others, why i stopped trying to be happy. because there is no use. trusting people is stupid. calling people "friends" is stupid. talking to other people, and building a "realtionship" is stupid. everything is stupid. living is fucking stupid.

i'm so. sick of everything.