i deleted your phone number. well, it was a while ago. years, even. because it was the right thing to do. right? because it was really over, you said so. no more. never again. and it hurt. and then it stopped. why do i keep writing about this? about you. to you.
i hoped i had your phone number somewhere. i want to call you. right now. right. now. now. now. and now. i miss you. everything i wanted to say, but i couldn't. i want to say that. now. on the phone. if i had your phone number. i would be calling. and i would say it. i'm sorry. i love you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. but i deleted it. i think my heart is exploding. i am going to do the right thing this weekend. the right thing. even if it won't change anything. even if it won't bring you back. because this fucks me up. i made a lot of mistakes.