2006-06-12 >>>>> - i've been having these dreams a lot lately. the same person keeps reappearing in different bodies. sometimes it's scary and sometimes it feels like coming home.
during the hours i spend in my bed awake, staring at the wall/ceiling or with my eyes closed when i don't have to rush out the door to work i pretend to be asleep and dream of australia. i dreamt of australia when i was very young and didn't know i was unhappy. koalas, kangaroos and a very big rock in the middle of nowhere seemed to be the perfect place to escape from this darkness. red evenings and perfect waves. still, something is pulling my heart out of my body and away. i hate it. it never really ended. i wouldn't even know where to go if i actually ended up going. it's just that thing where you need to touch it one last time to see if it's really over. but i know if i got to touch it i would never come back. and i'm so sorry. |
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