i painted. and smoked. and drank. and i knocked myself unconscious, and cut my arm up. not in that order. and i had the most horrible dreams, fucked up, weird, and it was scary. and i woke up with a headache, being dizzy and bathed in sweat. i nearly passed out when i took a shower. i am tired now. and i need to smoke, before i lose my mind. i am still too scared to go outside.