so i'm 21 now. there's no change. there's nothing i couldn't do before that i can do now. how delightfully unexciting. i feel like i should have done something by now. people keep telling me i am still young (ha) and i have plenty of time. but i'm not going anywhere.

i'm stuck in my room, overcome by panic every time i have to do something. what if i don't do it well enough? i'm working on a website for under byen (and they really do need it) but i feel like everything i do is just horrible and ugly. it's been so long. i wish i could just jump in and just do it. i don't even know what's stopping me.