i feel that if i get over someone, i didn't love them enough. and that's why i can't move on. i want to, because all this heartbreak is killing me. everyone else seems to get along fine, it's fine, and i'm not needed and it hurts. i'm childish and na�ve.

and sometimes i feel old, when i look at all the kids who jump from one relationship to the other, with about two days of heartbreak inbetween. how do they do it? they tell each other "i love you", but what do they know about love? they've known each other for two weeks. i wonder if i am just boring and old-fashioned, but it really puzzles me.

and so i keep on mourning. because i still love the people i've lost, and they're not coming back, and i'm stuck in the past, unable to move. if i let go, will you know i still love you? i can't let go, i'm too scared.