it's like i am the dirtiest person in the world. and i say no, but it never stops. i wake up, and there are hands groping at me, and i struggle to keep them off me. ten minutes later i wake up to the same hands touching my stomach and moving up to my breasts. and i elbow and i kick but i keep waking up another fifteen times and i want to scream but i'm just too tired. i would leave, but i have no place to go.

how do i make it stop? how does someone not understand that "no" actually means "no!"?