it's hard to write. because i don't know. anything. i feel sick. i have lost, one of the things that - i don't know. i break into tears randomly, several times a day. i wish it wasn't like this.

i might have to stop taking this medicine, because i keep losing weight, and i can't live without orgasms. what is sex without an orgasm? what is life, without sex? how can anyone live without sex? but then again - if you can't even enjoy it, what is the purpose of it?

fuck.